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This evening (well, last night rather) when Patrick left the apartment to go dancing at the clubs, I almost started crying. I've felt like crying every time I think of him for the past week. Why? I miss him in regards to my trip home to Pittsburgh. I know, I haven't left yet, and I'm spending time with him so how can I miss him? I dunno, but I do. I almost started to cry because I don't want to say bye. I don't want to leave. I want to stay all warm and safe snuggled up, feeling the wonderful ecstacy that is skin against skin. Just lying in each others arms, being happy. So rarely am I happy, I don't want to leave this happiness, for fear of losing it I think...

Revelation? I like him. I like Patrick

Unrelated, but please vote nonetheless (a poll regarding sex Vs. cuddling on the SeaGoth message board)

You don't know...

Well... after procrastinating for about three hours, and a wonderful night spent entwined in lovers arms, being awoken once with kisses to play out natures finest choreography, Patrick is in the shower, I am cold and have a wet head (post-shower) and I feel like I'm going to cry tears that would fill a Cornish dance studio.

One unfinished final whose due date is tomorrow 9am lies upon the livingroom floor, the other whose due date is Friday 1:30pm lies in scattered printouts of information spread through three rooms and lord knows how many piles of dirty laundry.

There is so much work to be done, cleaning, laundry, packing, settling bills, schoolwork, auditions... I don't know how I will ever get it all done by the time my plane leaves Saturday (11:15am I believe). What have I gotten myself into?

Perhaps Patrick will come to class on Friday... although it will only serve to make me hurt more... I must me masochistic like that.

Single edge razor blades

I just realized Patrick didn't say anything about my having cut.

Good?
Bad?
Uneffected?
Angry?
Dissappointed?

*whimper*

the Cars...

I want a car... a little Geo Metro.

I'm thinking blue
or green
or black


hmmm...

Revelation

Oh my g-d... I just noticed that EVIL, reversed, is LIVE.


that is all.